My Love Story..

5th Day after the question

It's still hunted me , I felt so scare even she gave me second chance . I don't know if we can get better , but I'm trying so hard to make it be better.. She's now focusing on her exam , so I suppose not to give her any pressure . I try to cheer her up, but I keep thinking about negative part. What make her out of sudden ask me, I still wish to know the reason. But I will slowly find it out , because I want to fix it if I could.

We were still taxing to each other, but she isn't like the way she are.. I miss the happy moment we had together , I feel so bad because she won't share with me her problem now a days , seems like I'm not the person that she trusted anymore , like before .. I'll be the person she will share her thoughts nor problem..

I miss you say "I love you bi" and the kisses you gave to me after any message. Even it's not really a big issue for someone , but it does for me.. the status on your facebook doesn't show that you're in relationship , why? I thought I have the second chance.

But on the 5th day after she and I were like on the end of our road , she slowly reply my message , with a topic . I hope it's not too late , I'm getting sick days by days . I can't sleep for the past 5 days , I keep vomiting , I can't have a perfect smile , I can't talk with anybody around me , I can't hold things properly.. my hands keep shaking.. shaking because I'm scare what will happen next, and I'm scare to lose you...

You act like there's nothing happen , but I knew , deep inside your heart.. you do love me.. For the years we passed together , walking happily on the same road. I wish I can take you with me , continue with our journey , because I'm scared to walk alone.

I love you so much . If there anything I could help , I want to help . Give me some trust . Don't be afraid if I found out the truth and it will hurt me, I'm scared if I don't find out the truth..

Dear readers , I love her so much .. everyone knows that.. Please help me if you have a way. I love my baby more then my life.

Lots of Love.. Just for you , My Dear , My Heart , My Life , My Star...