My Love Story

Even before this I told ya that I'm not going to type anything , but I changed my mind.

I want to tell you readers about my dear girlfriend.

I meet her in SDO-X (game) at the year of 2007

She is my very best friend on that time. After awhile we been couple for only 1 months + because she had another boy. I let her go because I know , it's hard for me to get her so , for her own happiness I should so that I'll happy to see the people I loved be happy , even not with me.

After like few months I didn't chat with her . I cant stop thinking about her , after awhile.. I pm her MSN , and tell that I just want to be friend with her as we were before. She agreed and I'm so happy even a bit sad hehe.. and again I'm getting close with her and I ask to be her brother again, and she agreed too ^^. Soon after that , she and her boyfriend that time broke up . So I try to cheer her up making her think about something.. Finally she managed to do so.. ^^

For 2 years plus I've been with her , always chat and help her with her problem , listen her story , making silly jokes . I never even once make her feel sad.. And she after awhile , can't stay if not chatting with me for a days.

Now she's 18 just finish SPM, and went into a Taylor's College Sri Hartamas at 2009. She just steps into a busy life , assignments , presentations & homeworks . But still I'll never left her , cheer her up , telling jokes , help on her assignments , and give inspiration for her.

Days passed , and she knew a guy .. they were being close together .. I'm a bit jealous .. but think back , there's no way for me to get her .. we're diff race tho , plus I'm far away lol. For her happiness ! I shouldn't stop her from being happy.. until her College are about on the last week , she told me that the guy asked her to be his girlfriend. But she decline.. because of some reason.. quite LC perhaps.. So I help my mui get her spirit back because I don't like to see her sad!

After that , we're getting very close to each others.. until on 24th of November 2009 I asked her to be my girl.. and know what guys? She did agree to be my girl! happiest day of my life! haha..

We promised to be with each other till the end of our life because we're tired .. and we are not interested to find anyone else already! Any problem will come ahead we will face together.. Cause we knew , there's lot to come =)

For the last 5 months I'm being with her.. it's the most happiest moment of my life , I thought I won't feel it anymore.. But with her.. I do :P every single day!

She never forget to wake me up, or sms me more then anybody possible do. but these two days , she seem change . Her blog that always write "Bi - hug & kisses" isn't there anymore. I thought she was stressed with her final exams. So I told her it's ok.

But........

On the 9th of April , I got a message from her.. telling me that she keep thinking about our future.. and asking for break up.. That time , I was with my friends.. And I... was shocked .. I ran out from the cyber cafe , sat beside the road , try to call her , she don't want to pick up.. I'm very scared that time , out of sudden she ask me this.. I'm confuse , scare , and I can't think well that time.. feel so mess up in my mind.. I even did jogging to chill down..

She said , she can't accept that she's going to be a Muslim.. and I wouldn't too if I'm on her place , she said..

Baby , I don't ask you to be.. if you don't want too.. We still have time.... "you can't fall in love if you don't know" beside, we're still young.. we're not going to get married tomorrow or next year.. it's going to be years to come.. I promised you that I'll make you happy , because I knew .. I can make you happy..

I never cry for 5 years .. And I did cry so bad because I scare of loosing you.. you took all my heart, not even a piece you left for me.. I can't take it back if you giving back too.. because I only can be alive if my heart are with you.. Don't give it back to me.. Please.... I never bag to anyone before.. You are the 1st .. Please baby.. We got time.. If there's a 3rd people who tried to mess up our relationship.. Don't listen to them.. Because We are for what we want to be... it's not them who to decide for us.. Our happiness , We decide.. I love you because not you're this or you are that.. I love you because you are Li Shan!

Love is blind , but we're the eyes.. Like I said , any relationship wont work well if there is not "trust".. So trust me because I trust you..

I'm still standing now , because I've lots of people who did come to me , giving me support and tips to get you back.. I don't know how to continue my life without you being around me.I really don't ......... I.. Love...You... Please don't dump me again... I've waited for so long... I really hope that we will be together no matter what will happen.. my waiting will not be a waste..

A message from my mom " my baby boy , don't do something stupid ok , you got people love you here.. take care dear , we love you" . I love you mom . I hope too that nothing will happen to me..

Lots of Love.. Just for you , My Dear , My Heart , My Life , My Star...