Good bye my bibi (baby)

This blog no longer can be use. I lost the fight. As for you, I just want you to be happy with whom you will be with soon and good luck in your exams and also your future. I hope he can hug you as I did when ever you wanna fall, entertain you when ever you are bored or sad, will always look after your little heart cause I knew it's sensitive, and will always be there for you whenever you need..

Breaking up with you is the hardest decision I ever made in my entire life... But..
I love you so much, this is why I agreed to let you go..

Because, your happiness is more important then mine. I like to see your smiles and laughter, not your sadness and tears.I want to see your pretty smiles and be happy everyday, even the smiles and happiness is not because of me. I will be always praying and cherish for your happiness.
There is nothing left for me to write in here anymore..
Take care my only Star, you did light up the dark in my life, now I need to find my own path..

I want you to know that, never even once I feel regrets for being with you. It was a great moment that I never felt before.

Forgive me if I did hurt you, I tried to be the best out of the best for you ..

Thanks for everything, I will always remember the time we spent together.. Forever..

Be strong in future! Drink more water and don't fall sick anymore! Aja aja fighting!

do you love me?

(This photo describe me the best, will you accept my heart back?)

After the question about breaking up, and we back together.. I never felt happy.. I don't know what I did wrong, and you , seems like don't love me as the way you loved me before.

You've changed .. I never want to argue with you , cause I want you to know , that you will be safe with me , the only person who understand you and do make you happy..

I always do the best that I could for you , but you seems different person to me now. You seems like not enjoying your self when we were spending times together.
I know that if I couldn't make our relationship back like before.. I will have to face the question once again.. What I can do now is pray for our relationship as I love you so much , but I am not sure if you do feels the same to me..

Lots of love.. Just for you , My Dear , My Heart , My Life , My Star ~*

(I'm doing the best for you, hope you notice that)

These past weeks I don't write much as I'm very tired , but I can't show it out in front of her .

These past weeks I notice that my health condition is getting worse, kept vomiting after I eat. I don't know if it's going to be okay.

But I don't care about that, what I'm worried now is about "us" since I don't feel our love is getting stronger.

I don't know what to do, what to say and how to react . I felt like my hand are tied up.

What I know is , I love you so much, and I know that I don't have the guts to lose you. Remember? You always scold me that I'm always busy with my stuffs, but did you notice, even I'm busy, I never left you alone but now seems that times is envy on us .. And you seems like running away from me. I can't say this out to you cause it might hurt you. I don't know what to do ,I just can act like I'm okay, and go on with it even I'm hurt.. Does love must be this hurt?

I've done the best that I could , and I will never stop nor give up. You're the girl for me, the only one that light up my life. I'll fight till you let me go, because I will never let you go..

Life goes by really fast, and it seems that there are times when you're burying a lot of friends and family. And then there are times that feel really precious and everybody is doing okay. This is one of those times.

-Amy Grant

Lots of love.. Just for you , My Dear , My Heart , My Life , My Star ~*

Her 1st day working.

(I'll hold you forever until you let me go, I promise you this)

10 of May is her 1st day in this working world. She doesn't look excited at all , she felt scared to go to her office. I'm not sleeping to accompany her on that day. I'm happy to see my girl is a one mature girl that growing up in front of me.. Being with her since she is still young, School, College,University and now shes working. I'm with her by short message system (SMS) & calls , this is how I can show how much I care about her, giving her tips , chat with her when she was feeling sleepy and bored.I'm sure she's lonely over there *hugs*. She was having a hard time there , with the new atmosphere and the people around her.

Slowly she will overcome and get well along with it. I feels bad for falling asleep when she almost 30 mins going to finish work. My eyes was hardly to open for the past hours. I'm sorry dear..

After one hours sleeping , I heard my phone rang . We're talking for almost 20 mins plus , and she was very sleepy that time. So I told her to get her rest even I knew she will wake up by tomorrow (and even I'd miss her a lot) . She went to bed at 8.30pm *hugs and kisses* sleep tight dear.. ^^

I'm proudly to say, I manage to accompany her for the whole month! even I just got two and half hour sleeping time on that month. I knew you will be angry about this but sorry, I want to be there always... for you ^^

Lots of love.. Just for you , My Dear , My Heart , My Life , My Star ~*

Punishment T_T"

(I'm the #1 happiest man in this world when I'm with you, and I'm not joking)

For falling asleep while chatting with her , this time I've been punished by her :(
Without no mercy , my lucky star punished my by writing an essay about her in 100 words. I've been doing it for the rest of the morning which usually I will be sleeping =3
So, here is the result :P

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My Lobster

Its 6 a.m. and the sky was still in the darkness of an extremely cold evening. Most people are still sleeping at this time, but she is already awake for her University's classes. Full of determination on her mission which never fade from her mind.

Everyone knows that she is soft-hearted. She always get bullied wherever she goes, but she never wants to hurt those people around her and who did hurt her. What she usually do is just keep it inside, sometimes she will let it out by telling her best friend about it and sometimes her boyfriend. Even though she is almost 19 , mature for some people , but she is still a small girl which need attention from people around her. She never get enough space for her self , being forced to do things she sometime don't like to do and without complain, this little star done it all.

All her friend are welcomed by her appearance, anywhere she goes all are happy with it. This little star attitude has made all her friends feel happy to hang out with her because of her generosity, funny , understanding , kind and easy-going behavior.

A daughter, a sister and girlfriend that never failed to do her responsibility which has made her labeled as pearl in their heart, as a "lucky star" By her boyfriend.

I can never feel thankful to get such a perfect girlfriend as I got now. She is a dream girl that become a reality instead of just a dream. Her life experience has made me more vigorous to be with her, to make her life perfect with a happy ending. I also realize the invaluable gift of life and true happiness to view the world more optimistically and to believe in the brighter future with her.

I love you ^^

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:D

P/S: Sorry lots of mistakes XD

Lots of love.. Just for you , My Dear , My Heart , My Life , My Star ~*

(naughty bibi)

The date was awesome.. to me and to all that attend on that day. We had a great sweet memories to be remember. Let me tell how it went.

On the morning , I left from Penang at 1.30am in the bus nothing much happen, just that someone tried to open my bag when I'm sleeping. *sigh* I Arrived at 6am , had a breakfast with my friend while waiting for our train.. He waited for me to go 1st even his train already there waiting. Thanks man, I appreciated that ^^

She picked me up at Sungai Buluh and we had breakfast (again for me) at one mamak stall near her house while she go back for change.Arrived Sunway was easy , just took us about 40 minutes drive if I'm not mistaken. 1st when we were there , it was too early. Most of the shops aren't open yet , so the girls including my baby wanna try some jumping games? XD .. She looks funny and cute! when playing that game XD . After that we straight go to the cinema to buy "Iron Man" movie tickets , and lucky the Que just about to start.

As we line up , most of people we looking at us (I'm not sure if she notice or not) but I know , it's ain't easy to see Chinese Malay couple around.. hehe.. In the cinema , I'm not really watching Iron Man actually XD. I was watching her and playing with her hand XD .. We're being very cute in the cinema where she laying on my shoulder

Finished movies, we gone for lunch at sakae sushi, and I give her a couple kitchen and she give me a couple phone accessory, and she ask me not to look when she's doing that, because she send me a hamsap voice tones to my voice, and her sister called me and I was like "omg that's coming from my phone!" haha funny times :P

Next we went to a place called .. erm.. something goes with dream.... can't remember the full name XD . We took some picture together. After that we went to the big event .. Ice skating XD. It has been around , uhm.. 10 years? I never skate :O , but guess, I still got the basic .. When we're going to step inside the ring , she was kinda afraid to enter , so I go in 1st .. And give her my hand XD . She was not able to stand properly for that few mins at the start. So I just hug her inside the ring while teaching her how to move smoothly , I notice most of the people there was watching us two.. But who cares? She's my baby XD I traveled hundreds miles for her , I love her so much, nothing can stop me from showing my love to her right? XD.

Guess what , amazingly after few rounds .. She was able to move well , and we didn't fall at all *hugs*

After skating, we all were tired, and it's going to be dark, and it's time to me to go back Penang before I missed my bus. On the way back we got ourself lost, looking for the road back took us 3hours :'3 Asked police, and even policeman gave us wrong direction -.-" so I ask her to stop at 7eleven, and I ask that boy work there to give me a miss call if I'm lost again I'll call him, and the funny tones again appears sweat! haha

Finally , we did found our way to go back.. All was happy on that day.. Now , I'm started to miss her.. :P

P/S : When you girls reach home, I fell asleep in train and I missed my bus, I didn't sleep that whole night.. My phone out of battery and I can't call my friends that stays in KL. Hard times for me haha, but it worth the memories ^^

Lots of love.. Just for you , My Dear , My Heart , My Life , My Star ~*

(A gift from her who always accompany me when playing games "Baby" )

Can say now we're back like 100% happy with funny jokes around , sharing , teaching , teasing and playing with each other.

I'd think a lot after she mention the "cursed" words to me last time . But since it's back to normal .. I'm very happy about it .. and this time I'll do even more better then last time , fix what I did wrong and improve what I did right .

I wonder , why bi still don't want to say the words sometimes .. Even I keep repeating the words "I love you", bi just reply me with a kisses sound .. But soon bi will say it out.. Slowly on this (Gambateh to my self)

Nowadays , I really don't play or facing PC a lot like I did before. More with books and books.. I love reading books since I'ma small boy , but after playing games .. =P no more time to spare with books =3 Sorry mom XD

She love the present I sent to her , and I'm so happy she like it =P

4 more days to go.. wish our date went excellent yah guys :P *prays*

Lots of love.. Just for you , My Dear , My Heart , My Life , My Star ~*